Once Again

Witwiu~~~
long time with no update....
i got nothin much to share here but still...this past few months really is sumtin...
i got some stories to share but not much time left for me to use diz free wifi...too sad~~

"Get your ass out of bed and be beautiful. That's it! Wake up now world..we have on one life to live"

~mcettyxoxo

~in moment of photo shooting (2) ~

Hey guys...today im not in the mood of doing anything..but to run away from my 'bored-line'..im thinkin of updating this blog as well..

just now...i keeping my eyes on sumtin that i could raise as an issue to my blog and look what i have found...

i found me in my traditional costume!! alright..lemme share a bit bout this costume. this costume is a costume for LOTUD, a sub-ethnic group for the dusunic, now also known as kadazandusun.

well actually, im not wearing a full accessories on this photo coz i dont have doz.. this costume was made by my mommy..^^, and my aunt.. honestly, im proud of wearing this coz i dont have to pay any for it hehe..not just that but it was a home-made costume made for me.. and i dont feel of borrowing it to someone else even if they paid for it..i only can say, SORY but NO..

i dont have much ideas today..i feel kinda blurr n wat so over....but i would like to share some other photo by me wearing this costume..have a look for while..^^

and now...GTG..^^, 

something special from someone special

another update from me for today..i mean my second update just for today..i thought of keeping it for myself but i cant stand the thunder i had inside me while listening to this special song from someone special..

i bet you never know how i feel every time i listen to this song..sorry but i think the original singer also cant beat this guy..know why? apart from listening to the original soundtrack, i prefer this cover coz amazingly, this guy really made me cry by just listening to his voice.. from this morning, i dont know how many times oredy i replay or repeat this song.. not just for today but also the day before...huhuu i cant stand it..seriously~ this was really a THUNDER!! i am totally serious of getting a butterfly flying over here and there in my stomach..Gosh! this cant be real...

someone i adore..someone in me...inspired me..

Have u heard about ''listening to your own thought bout yourself''? i got that words by my bestie and i dunnoe what urge me to find that thought i have in me..it's just like an inspiration she said..something that inspired your own self even with what people give u or some kind of sharing they taught u..but there'll be someone inside u that will always inspired u with thing neither u or other couldn't think about.. and my thought for my own self about my imperfectness is, i am unique..because of my sweet imperfectness, i am different from others..and by that thought, i started to enjoy myself more than everyone else could..

after i reflect back what i've heard from others bout me..and what is their possible thought of me..i asked myself, what else should i do to make everyone satisfied with what i have and with what i do? what is the thing they really want from me for them to accept me the way i am? and yes, that kind of question sometimes could bring me down cause i'm too busy stressing myself to impress others than to enjoy the blessing God gave me..

i'm too busy collecting others personality just to make it one of mine without realize that i got my own and that's unique. i always searching for someone that could give me a lil inspiration, i think, to make me whom i suppose to be..




but then..after a kind lil sharing i got bout that 'self thought', i started to find the answer in me..and amazingly, i found it all just by searching the deep self of me. And now i know how to thanks God for every blessing He gave me..

And last night, my friend who's name is Tiffany (i called her Tiff), said that every 'something' we got, we have to lose something..and then i realize 1 more thing. God always replace something better to us..even if we lose something that might be important, He will replace it with something better. and that's a kinda sharing from her that she might not know im paying attention on that words she said.


Now, let us listen to our own thought about our own self without thinking bout other's thought. did yourself really criticized you? did yourself really annoying you? well..we all might have different thought but as for me, i found someone much more better than the other people in me. MYSELF.. yes, i found myself in me..my own personality.. without knowing i have it all, i criticized myself..torturing myself..and blaming me for being me.. but i got no worries anymore towards people's thought of me cause i have something better for myself.. no one could really appreciate you than yourself.. that's inspired me the most. Start to enjoy every inches of you cause we are unique in our own ways.. don't let people look down on you or judge you by seeing you different from them cause they might not perfect either!

keep a good look on yourself. Know that God made no mistake while creating you..be willing to accept yourself..and sorry to say that now, i am more inspired by my own self than other. and i realize that someone i really adore for making me who i am today is me, myself. others may give some inspiration and motivated me, no doubt bout that..but it's me who made a decision of being me myself. Many thanks to people around me that teach me about facing all the dramas in life..they taught me so much..and i thank myself for being someone that appreciate me more than others will do..




Hope that this lil sharing could give some inspiration..i'll update soon with much more sharing..^^, till then..just be yourself cause you never know how desperately people wanna be just like you...be thankful..*LOVE

A day with Angkasawan Negara..^^

Alright, today i wanna share bout what happened today..and i can describe it in only simple sentence..TODAY WAS A BLAST!!

our college held an event today..it is a tribute to those who have achieve a great achievement in their study..something like an appreciation to the student..and i cant believe that i'm one of them..cant believe that i managed to done well in my academic although there are many obstacle that came on my way..^^,

But the most beautiful experience i've gained today was...i hav met the angkasawan negara, Mejar (Dr) Faiz Khaleed, face to face..He was our college special guest as he is our icon for City University College Of Science and Technology..and guess what? huh~~ i got thunder on my heart like fuhh!! it was really a blast!! seriously~~

i've seen him in the photos but i owez thought that he was only like a so-so guy..but after what happened today, i absolutely, completely, totally, feels like wow~ he's amazing...he gives us a motivational talk and miracle! this is the first time i didn't felt sleepy at all during people give a talk..haha that's why i called him amazing..i was totally impressed with his achievement cause he is an astronaut but before this, he was only a dentist..alright, i'll share some of his motivational talk as for our motivation..

He said that we must set our goal toward sumtin, in simple word, we must have our own goal..and of course, in order for us to achieve what we've been longing for, there'll be a lot of obstacle waiting for us..but still, we need to carry on with the dream to be success..if people around us keep telling that we cant do it, dont blame them for that cause they have they own reason. and we only have 2 answers for them, say no to their reason or follow with their reason. And he also told us that we need to think bigger or think out of the box..doesnt mean that we have a certificate in this field, we must be one..for example, im takin MLT for my diploma so that i must be a MLT-ist..cause i can be whatever i wanna be beside the field im taking now..well, 'where there's a will, there's a way' right? Just like Dr. Faiz, he was a dentist and he joined a military and now he's an astronaut..cant u imagine that we also can be whatever we want..we can be whatever we want in a different field..no one could stop one if they have set their goal in it..

by what i have gained from his talked, he really inspired me to do something else beside in the field im in..and i could really said that HE IS MY ICON. 

other than that, i really glad that my name was listed in the great level of achievement. CGPA above 3.50 and i cant believe that i really do it..nice right? This is especially and exclusively for my family..i do this for y'all...and to other, i said that i can do it right..and this is the prove..^^,

Thanks God for what i've achieve and i'll keep it up...

To understand someone, you must first learn their past

People often said, "what past is past"...

but sometimes, that one should take back that 'past' to understand it better..you know what? that pity past was something that made someone who they are now.
have you ever heard the phrase in malay, "buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih"?
this phrase, of course, teach us how to accept the thing that happened in the past. but in love, in order to understand your someone now, you must learn about their past cause that was the thing that made who they are today.
i've heard people said that in love we should forget the past and start over new but fellas, you will never understand that someone before you try to understand their past. Don't blame someone for building the walls around them and barricades their heart cause we don't know their past. Maybe in the past, they have been hurt so much that broke them into pieces until it is hard for them to put their trust on someone again.
Well, you might know that trust is like a paper. Once it's crumpled, it can't be perfect anymore. And if yes, it would never be the same again. That's why when someone had their heart broken, they're afraid to open up their heart again and they don't want to go through the phase again. So, i bet you got the point that i'm tryin to highlight here....
The best thing to do is try to be someone that can understand what they have been through in their past so that you know how to treat them better. And yes, it is true that revealing someone's past would make them feel bad but don't ask them directly about their past life. Make them tell you honestly without they feel like being force to tell you. And when they feel free to talk about their past, listen to them and to what they said. Get to know what their mind is like. Cause 97% of people's thoughts are a representation of their true feelings.

To build up a trusting relationship, they must have a courage to do so. Put yourself into theirs and get to know them for who they are and always be honest with them cause for the phase that they've been through, don't make it even more harder for them. And the most important thing is, don't be the person that doesn't understand their someone and simply blame them for the way they act, because you never took even a minute to understand their life in the past.
Well...it's simply and perfectly clear what i really try to put in here is loving is not just by who they are now but who they were and who they'll be in the future. It is true that the best relationship is by put ahead what have happened in the past but still..you need to understand them by their past before putting that past away and keep walking ahead. They'll feel much more appreciated by you if you go through each day understanding them cause by that way, you've showed that you really care about them...^^, Love until your heart burst with the happiness. Living each day with them truthfully not by lie.

Until then, take note..^^, <3

p/s : photo was taken by me myself..feel free to visit my page..rate and comments are welcome..^^,

~ in the moment of photo shooting ~

i would like to share some of the moment while im doing some of this thing called photo shooting.. im not that talented to be a model but this was just-for-fun activity.. photo taken not by a professional photographer or by a high quality camera but still, the product turn out great.. then, here you go..

this photo was taken by my dear lappy not too long time ago...there are another photos taken  by this time but i couldnt share all of it...well, i've took over 60 photos in a day at this time.. crazy isnt it? haha.. alright, i'll show some of them..take a look..^^

have any comment for these photos? feel free to comment...^^, coz any comments are welcome...

but before that, i would like to add some other photos to share with you...

 these photos were taken as a memory with my sweet snow suit..

u wont believe if i said that the price of this cloth was only rm18...my luck i think..

alright..that's all for now...i got plenty to share actually but the time was so jealous with the relationship between my blog and me..so, gotta go now..^^








will update more story-morry soon....catch y'all later...^^

~ meaning of friendship ~

people often talk about true value of friendship actually without knowing what stands for. and as for me, friend means something that we can't even replace with a million of happiness..coz friend will owez be there for you no matter what condition you are in now..

have you ever get hurts by your own trusted friend? they acted like a friend but in the same time, they treat you like a stranger. i feel bad when they only remember me when they needed me..and most of the time i feel so lonely without they even try to cheer me up..and that was the moment when i put a sight the meaning of friendship.

trusted friend is like a family to us..but what is the point if they don't even acknowledge you in time of trouble?

~ cute little Shin Chan ~

long time with no update..^^, well...im kinda bz these past few months...i would like u to enjoy diz vid...diz was made by my teammate for our chem path presentation....credit to him...it was a very wonderful work n also thanx to him coz our presentation was very interesting with d presence of diz vid as our opening and closing...

nice isn't it? ^^,

Treasure of LOVE

some of us called it wonderful...some said hurt...others may said it horrible but sometimes they called it sweets..but i called it treasure..
have you ever been in love? it will made you feel like the world is yours. sometimes made you feel vulnerable. when it last with the word of 'us', you'll end up smilin but have you ever wonder that they may break you into pieces in the very beginning?
love is what opens up your heart and give a permission to someone to enter and mess you up. from the very first beginning, you've set up your life..you build up all defenses, thinkin that no one could hurt..but you forgot that love make all things possible and it could destroy all the defenses you've build.
on that one fine day, there'll be someone...just someone that ruin your stupid defenses and mess up with your stupid perfect life. you wouldn't notice that changes they've brought. they keep wanders in your mind. then you simply give them a pieces of you and they didn't ask for it. at this point, you're not yourself and your life isn't yours anymore.
take note that love takes hostage. when it gets inside you, it will eat you out..and when it comes to the moment that you need to let it go, you'll never will..because love is something that teach you about holding on tightly without letting go.
by that time, you'll feel like dying. it really get inside you and destroyed your perfect life. it rips you apart and i know how it felt. by this point, you'll start to blame love for what the person did.
but, love isn't hurt...it never at all..it was something that treasure you most and never leave you. you've hurt because you've learn how to keep love. and the truth is, it's not the person that you afraid to lose but the love you felt inside.
when you look on the other side, you'll see that love isn't hurt but it was the treasure that you found. it is a blessed gift of all. learn to love sincerely and it will never take you for granted. love is wonderful instead...perhaps you'll never loss in love...^^,

...~ nothing is right when everything wrong ~...

s0metimes, it is hard to tell someone bout what we felt bout them...or what we've g0in through...we tend to hide our feeling and keep it to ourselves...but we didn't realize that emotion get burst when it kept much longer...but no matter how hard we try to hide it, there'll be someone that could see what we're going through, perfectly...and when they ask us, we denied it...the question is, f0r h0w long we should keep it to ourselves? sometimes it is good to let somebody know but for some people, they're afraid to show their feeling to others...and i perfectly understand that kind of feeling....

me too, honestly, that kind of person...i can't talk too much bout what i felt inside..it is n0t because of i don't want to but s0metimes we feel that way because we afraid of our own feeling...just like me...most of the time, i don't have a courage to let someone know what i feel towards them because i'm afraid of what i feel...but i do want them to know actually....

especially to this one person...i really want him to know what i felt inside but i just don't know how to tell him...when he ask me what's wrong i just said that nothing is wrong and everything ok...but sometimes it isn't..i just don't want him to be worry bout me..but no matter how i tried to hide it, he always know...and that's what made him so special....^^,

there's a lot of things i want to share with him but i just don't know how to tell him because i already get use by keeping my feeling to myself...and yes, i'm not ok with the fact that you're with her but i don't really care bout it cause i know your heart is mine...and honestly, i am totally terrified to let you go..because, what if i never found someone like you again? and every time i think of her, i have this weird feeling...yes, i'm jealous but i'm sure that your love for me is true...i cried when i miss you so much...and i can't stop thinking bout you every single day cause i miss you every second...

but there is one thing that i'll never stop telling you...i heart you so much...and will always do...i promise and will never let go of that promise...^^,

...~ the minute you think to give up, remember why you hold on for so long ~...

sometimes loving some0ne will make you hurt so much...

but being in love was the sweetest moment and no one could stop the feeling...

just like i've said before..love, sometimes it last in love sometimes it hurt instead

but before you think of giving up,

take a moment and think back why you held on for so long..

as for me, giving up on something u should keep is the foolish decision u ever made..

i know love sometimes hurt u so much but if u already know about it in the very beginning, 

why u keep holding onto the thing that will keep u in vain?

and i know how its felt when your heart get broken by being in love...

but people, i'll never let go of this feeling i have inside...

and i'll never break the promise i've made...^^

i heart you~

...~ If you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there? ~...

we all dreams to be with some0ne we really love

but s0metime that dream w0nt c0me true..

and no matter h0w much we've tried,

fate w0n't bring us t0gether

because it w0uld never meant t0 be...

s0metimes that love c0uld be f0rgotten and s0metimes we can't even turn 0ur back 0n it...

we h0pe that it w0uld pass us by with0ut a tears...

but in s0mekind 0f love

it keeps hunting us no matter h0w far we run...

and we'll keep 0n waiting f0r that dream t0 c0me true...

but pe0ple........

i believe that love will always find a way...

and we'll never lost it all...

yes, i kn0w..it'll hurt a bit and maybe it'll breaks 0ur heart into pieces

but when tw0 pers0n truly in love with each 0ther

they d0n't need t0 find love

cause eventually,

LOVE will f0und them..

and even if they're not meant t0 be

that love will never die...

if you really want to be with s0me0ne you love,

you're already there...in their heart...

haven't you heard that true love never die??

trust me...it's true...^^,

...~ with a bouquet 0f LOVE ~...

it's been 6 years oredy...and the feelin keep stronger and str0nger...
there's 0ne song i heard by Adele..s0me0ne like you...i love to hear the phrase 's0metimes it last in love, sometimes it hurt instead'...

i don't know much bout' the meaning but it suit me best when it comes to this st0ry 0f mine...
we've kn0wn f0r 0ver 10 years oredy...since we were 5...he's a friend 0f mine and i never thought it c0uld end in love..but we're n0t a c0uple instead..

he g0t s0me0ne bside him..and i g0t mine..but the love we have w0uld never end...that's the pr0mise we've made...^^, h0nestly, i never f0und s0me0ne like him...he's t00 perfect to me...and that's the fact that hurt me m0st because i'm afraid that i can't find s0me0ne like him...

he can't let me g0 and s0 d0 i...but we don't kn0w what future bring us too...but 0ne thing f0r sure is, this love is the best mem0ries of love i ever had...^^ and i love him so damn much...

s0 pe0ple, d0nt be afraid t0 love...feel free cause love will always find a way...and i kn0w, it is true that sometimes it last in love and s0metimes it hurt instead...but that's what teach us what we need to learn...^^,

...~ a 2011 birthday miracle~....

on 19th dec 2011, i celebrate my 21st bufdae....^^, gettin much 0lder 0redy....but i feel like im gettin much y0unger n0w...

but that's n0t the p0int here...what im tryin t0 share is, i g0t miracle happen on my bufdae this year...and i still can't believe it...

i g0t a surprise bufdae present fr0m s0me1 that i knew f0r a l0ng l0ng l0ng time...that s0me1 is n0t just a 0rdinary s0me0ne but special s0me0ne...<3

i knew him f0r a l0ng time 0redy since we were 5 years 0ld...and that s0meone is very special and dearr t0 me...he meant s0 much t0 me and i can't tell h0w much i heart him..^^, i mean LOVE...

 ....this was the great miracle happen t0 me 0n my 21st bufdae....

the first present he sent t0 me...a simple but it brought a deepest meaning...and th0se 3 w0rds really make my w0rld g0 r0und...^^,

....i'm very grateful f0r this special wish and present he gave me...

.......1.........4.......3..........^^,