~in moment of photo shooting (2) ~

Hey guys...today im not in the mood of doing anything..but to run away from my 'bored-line'..im thinkin of updating this blog as well..

just now...i keeping my eyes on sumtin that i could raise as an issue to my blog and look what i have found...

i found me in my traditional costume!! alright..lemme share a bit bout this costume. this costume is a costume for LOTUD, a sub-ethnic group for the dusunic, now also known as kadazandusun.

well actually, im not wearing a full accessories on this photo coz i dont have doz.. this costume was made by my mommy..^^, and my aunt.. honestly, im proud of wearing this coz i dont have to pay any for it hehe..not just that but it was a home-made costume made for me.. and i dont feel of borrowing it to someone else even if they paid for it..i only can say, SORY but NO..

i dont have much ideas today..i feel kinda blurr n wat so over....but i would like to share some other photo by me wearing this costume..have a look for while..^^

and now...GTG..^^, 

something special from someone special

another update from me for today..i mean my second update just for today..i thought of keeping it for myself but i cant stand the thunder i had inside me while listening to this special song from someone special..

i bet you never know how i feel every time i listen to this song..sorry but i think the original singer also cant beat this guy..know why? apart from listening to the original soundtrack, i prefer this cover coz amazingly, this guy really made me cry by just listening to his voice.. from this morning, i dont know how many times oredy i replay or repeat this song.. not just for today but also the day before...huhuu i cant stand it..seriously~ this was really a THUNDER!! i am totally serious of getting a butterfly flying over here and there in my stomach..Gosh! this cant be real...

someone i adore..someone in me...inspired me..

Have u heard about ''listening to your own thought bout yourself''? i got that words by my bestie and i dunnoe what urge me to find that thought i have in me..it's just like an inspiration she said..something that inspired your own self even with what people give u or some kind of sharing they taught u..but there'll be someone inside u that will always inspired u with thing neither u or other couldn't think about.. and my thought for my own self about my imperfectness is, i am unique..because of my sweet imperfectness, i am different from others..and by that thought, i started to enjoy myself more than everyone else could..

after i reflect back what i've heard from others bout me..and what is their possible thought of me..i asked myself, what else should i do to make everyone satisfied with what i have and with what i do? what is the thing they really want from me for them to accept me the way i am? and yes, that kind of question sometimes could bring me down cause i'm too busy stressing myself to impress others than to enjoy the blessing God gave me..

i'm too busy collecting others personality just to make it one of mine without realize that i got my own and that's unique. i always searching for someone that could give me a lil inspiration, i think, to make me whom i suppose to be..




but then..after a kind lil sharing i got bout that 'self thought', i started to find the answer in me..and amazingly, i found it all just by searching the deep self of me. And now i know how to thanks God for every blessing He gave me..

And last night, my friend who's name is Tiffany (i called her Tiff), said that every 'something' we got, we have to lose something..and then i realize 1 more thing. God always replace something better to us..even if we lose something that might be important, He will replace it with something better. and that's a kinda sharing from her that she might not know im paying attention on that words she said.


Now, let us listen to our own thought about our own self without thinking bout other's thought. did yourself really criticized you? did yourself really annoying you? well..we all might have different thought but as for me, i found someone much more better than the other people in me. MYSELF.. yes, i found myself in me..my own personality.. without knowing i have it all, i criticized myself..torturing myself..and blaming me for being me.. but i got no worries anymore towards people's thought of me cause i have something better for myself.. no one could really appreciate you than yourself.. that's inspired me the most. Start to enjoy every inches of you cause we are unique in our own ways.. don't let people look down on you or judge you by seeing you different from them cause they might not perfect either!

keep a good look on yourself. Know that God made no mistake while creating you..be willing to accept yourself..and sorry to say that now, i am more inspired by my own self than other. and i realize that someone i really adore for making me who i am today is me, myself. others may give some inspiration and motivated me, no doubt bout that..but it's me who made a decision of being me myself. Many thanks to people around me that teach me about facing all the dramas in life..they taught me so much..and i thank myself for being someone that appreciate me more than others will do..




Hope that this lil sharing could give some inspiration..i'll update soon with much more sharing..^^, till then..just be yourself cause you never know how desperately people wanna be just like you...be thankful..*LOVE

A day with Angkasawan Negara..^^

Alright, today i wanna share bout what happened today..and i can describe it in only simple sentence..TODAY WAS A BLAST!!

our college held an event today..it is a tribute to those who have achieve a great achievement in their study..something like an appreciation to the student..and i cant believe that i'm one of them..cant believe that i managed to done well in my academic although there are many obstacle that came on my way..^^,

But the most beautiful experience i've gained today was...i hav met the angkasawan negara, Mejar (Dr) Faiz Khaleed, face to face..He was our college special guest as he is our icon for City University College Of Science and Technology..and guess what? huh~~ i got thunder on my heart like fuhh!! it was really a blast!! seriously~~

i've seen him in the photos but i owez thought that he was only like a so-so guy..but after what happened today, i absolutely, completely, totally, feels like wow~ he's amazing...he gives us a motivational talk and miracle! this is the first time i didn't felt sleepy at all during people give a talk..haha that's why i called him amazing..i was totally impressed with his achievement cause he is an astronaut but before this, he was only a dentist..alright, i'll share some of his motivational talk as for our motivation..

He said that we must set our goal toward sumtin, in simple word, we must have our own goal..and of course, in order for us to achieve what we've been longing for, there'll be a lot of obstacle waiting for us..but still, we need to carry on with the dream to be success..if people around us keep telling that we cant do it, dont blame them for that cause they have they own reason. and we only have 2 answers for them, say no to their reason or follow with their reason. And he also told us that we need to think bigger or think out of the box..doesnt mean that we have a certificate in this field, we must be one..for example, im takin MLT for my diploma so that i must be a MLT-ist..cause i can be whatever i wanna be beside the field im taking now..well, 'where there's a will, there's a way' right? Just like Dr. Faiz, he was a dentist and he joined a military and now he's an astronaut..cant u imagine that we also can be whatever we want..we can be whatever we want in a different field..no one could stop one if they have set their goal in it..

by what i have gained from his talked, he really inspired me to do something else beside in the field im in..and i could really said that HE IS MY ICON. 

other than that, i really glad that my name was listed in the great level of achievement. CGPA above 3.50 and i cant believe that i really do it..nice right? This is especially and exclusively for my family..i do this for y'all...and to other, i said that i can do it right..and this is the prove..^^,

Thanks God for what i've achieve and i'll keep it up...

To understand someone, you must first learn their past

People often said, "what past is past"...

but sometimes, that one should take back that 'past' to understand it better..you know what? that pity past was something that made someone who they are now.
have you ever heard the phrase in malay, "buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih"?
this phrase, of course, teach us how to accept the thing that happened in the past. but in love, in order to understand your someone now, you must learn about their past cause that was the thing that made who they are today.
i've heard people said that in love we should forget the past and start over new but fellas, you will never understand that someone before you try to understand their past. Don't blame someone for building the walls around them and barricades their heart cause we don't know their past. Maybe in the past, they have been hurt so much that broke them into pieces until it is hard for them to put their trust on someone again.
Well, you might know that trust is like a paper. Once it's crumpled, it can't be perfect anymore. And if yes, it would never be the same again. That's why when someone had their heart broken, they're afraid to open up their heart again and they don't want to go through the phase again. So, i bet you got the point that i'm tryin to highlight here....
The best thing to do is try to be someone that can understand what they have been through in their past so that you know how to treat them better. And yes, it is true that revealing someone's past would make them feel bad but don't ask them directly about their past life. Make them tell you honestly without they feel like being force to tell you. And when they feel free to talk about their past, listen to them and to what they said. Get to know what their mind is like. Cause 97% of people's thoughts are a representation of their true feelings.

To build up a trusting relationship, they must have a courage to do so. Put yourself into theirs and get to know them for who they are and always be honest with them cause for the phase that they've been through, don't make it even more harder for them. And the most important thing is, don't be the person that doesn't understand their someone and simply blame them for the way they act, because you never took even a minute to understand their life in the past.
Well...it's simply and perfectly clear what i really try to put in here is loving is not just by who they are now but who they were and who they'll be in the future. It is true that the best relationship is by put ahead what have happened in the past but still..you need to understand them by their past before putting that past away and keep walking ahead. They'll feel much more appreciated by you if you go through each day understanding them cause by that way, you've showed that you really care about them...^^, Love until your heart burst with the happiness. Living each day with them truthfully not by lie.

Until then, take note..^^, <3

p/s : photo was taken by me myself..feel free to visit my page..rate and comments are welcome..^^,