Treasure of LOVE

some of us called it wonderful...some said hurt...others may said it horrible but sometimes they called it sweets..but i called it treasure..
have you ever been in love? it will made you feel like the world is yours. sometimes made you feel vulnerable. when it last with the word of 'us', you'll end up smilin but have you ever wonder that they may break you into pieces in the very beginning?
love is what opens up your heart and give a permission to someone to enter and mess you up. from the very first beginning, you've set up your life..you build up all defenses, thinkin that no one could hurt..but you forgot that love make all things possible and it could destroy all the defenses you've build.
on that one fine day, there'll be someone...just someone that ruin your stupid defenses and mess up with your stupid perfect life. you wouldn't notice that changes they've brought. they keep wanders in your mind. then you simply give them a pieces of you and they didn't ask for it. at this point, you're not yourself and your life isn't yours anymore.
take note that love takes hostage. when it gets inside you, it will eat you out..and when it comes to the moment that you need to let it go, you'll never will..because love is something that teach you about holding on tightly without letting go.
by that time, you'll feel like dying. it really get inside you and destroyed your perfect life. it rips you apart and i know how it felt. by this point, you'll start to blame love for what the person did.
but, love isn't hurt...it never at all..it was something that treasure you most and never leave you. you've hurt because you've learn how to keep love. and the truth is, it's not the person that you afraid to lose but the love you felt inside.
when you look on the other side, you'll see that love isn't hurt but it was the treasure that you found. it is a blessed gift of all. learn to love sincerely and it will never take you for granted. love is wonderful instead...perhaps you'll never loss in love...^^,

...~ nothing is right when everything wrong ~...

s0metimes, it is hard to tell someone bout what we felt bout them...or what we've g0in through...we tend to hide our feeling and keep it to ourselves...but we didn't realize that emotion get burst when it kept much longer...but no matter how hard we try to hide it, there'll be someone that could see what we're going through, perfectly...and when they ask us, we denied it...the question is, f0r h0w long we should keep it to ourselves? sometimes it is good to let somebody know but for some people, they're afraid to show their feeling to others...and i perfectly understand that kind of feeling....

me too, honestly, that kind of person...i can't talk too much bout what i felt inside..it is n0t because of i don't want to but s0metimes we feel that way because we afraid of our own feeling...just like me...most of the time, i don't have a courage to let someone know what i feel towards them because i'm afraid of what i feel...but i do want them to know actually....

especially to this one person...i really want him to know what i felt inside but i just don't know how to tell him...when he ask me what's wrong i just said that nothing is wrong and everything ok...but sometimes it isn't..i just don't want him to be worry bout me..but no matter how i tried to hide it, he always know...and that's what made him so special....^^,

there's a lot of things i want to share with him but i just don't know how to tell him because i already get use by keeping my feeling to myself...and yes, i'm not ok with the fact that you're with her but i don't really care bout it cause i know your heart is mine...and honestly, i am totally terrified to let you go..because, what if i never found someone like you again? and every time i think of her, i have this weird feeling...yes, i'm jealous but i'm sure that your love for me is true...i cried when i miss you so much...and i can't stop thinking bout you every single day cause i miss you every second...

but there is one thing that i'll never stop telling you...i heart you so much...and will always do...i promise and will never let go of that promise...^^,

...~ the minute you think to give up, remember why you hold on for so long ~...

sometimes loving some0ne will make you hurt so much...

but being in love was the sweetest moment and no one could stop the feeling...

just like i've said before..love, sometimes it last in love sometimes it hurt instead

but before you think of giving up,

take a moment and think back why you held on for so long..

as for me, giving up on something u should keep is the foolish decision u ever made..

i know love sometimes hurt u so much but if u already know about it in the very beginning, 

why u keep holding onto the thing that will keep u in vain?

and i know how its felt when your heart get broken by being in love...

but people, i'll never let go of this feeling i have inside...

and i'll never break the promise i've made...^^

i heart you~

...~ If you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there? ~...

we all dreams to be with some0ne we really love

but s0metime that dream w0nt c0me true..

and no matter h0w much we've tried,

fate w0n't bring us t0gether

because it w0uld never meant t0 be...

s0metimes that love c0uld be f0rgotten and s0metimes we can't even turn 0ur back 0n it...

we h0pe that it w0uld pass us by with0ut a tears...

but in s0mekind 0f love

it keeps hunting us no matter h0w far we run...

and we'll keep 0n waiting f0r that dream t0 c0me true...

but pe0ple........

i believe that love will always find a way...

and we'll never lost it all...

yes, i kn0w..it'll hurt a bit and maybe it'll breaks 0ur heart into pieces

but when tw0 pers0n truly in love with each 0ther

they d0n't need t0 find love

cause eventually,

LOVE will f0und them..

and even if they're not meant t0 be

that love will never die...

if you really want to be with s0me0ne you love,

you're already there...in their heart...

haven't you heard that true love never die??

trust me...it's true...^^,

...~ with a bouquet 0f LOVE ~...

it's been 6 years oredy...and the feelin keep stronger and str0nger...
there's 0ne song i heard by Adele..s0me0ne like you...i love to hear the phrase 's0metimes it last in love, sometimes it hurt instead'...

i don't know much bout' the meaning but it suit me best when it comes to this st0ry 0f mine...
we've kn0wn f0r 0ver 10 years oredy...since we were 5...he's a friend 0f mine and i never thought it c0uld end in love..but we're n0t a c0uple instead..

he g0t s0me0ne bside him..and i g0t mine..but the love we have w0uld never end...that's the pr0mise we've made...^^, h0nestly, i never f0und s0me0ne like him...he's t00 perfect to me...and that's the fact that hurt me m0st because i'm afraid that i can't find s0me0ne like him...

he can't let me g0 and s0 d0 i...but we don't kn0w what future bring us too...but 0ne thing f0r sure is, this love is the best mem0ries of love i ever had...^^ and i love him so damn much...

s0 pe0ple, d0nt be afraid t0 love...feel free cause love will always find a way...and i kn0w, it is true that sometimes it last in love and s0metimes it hurt instead...but that's what teach us what we need to learn...^^,

...~ a 2011 birthday miracle~....

on 19th dec 2011, i celebrate my 21st bufdae....^^, gettin much 0lder 0redy....but i feel like im gettin much y0unger n0w...

but that's n0t the p0int here...what im tryin t0 share is, i g0t miracle happen on my bufdae this year...and i still can't believe it...

i g0t a surprise bufdae present fr0m s0me1 that i knew f0r a l0ng l0ng l0ng time...that s0me1 is n0t just a 0rdinary s0me0ne but special s0me0ne...<3

i knew him f0r a l0ng time 0redy since we were 5 years 0ld...and that s0meone is very special and dearr t0 me...he meant s0 much t0 me and i can't tell h0w much i heart him..^^, i mean LOVE...

 ....this was the great miracle happen t0 me 0n my 21st bufdae....

the first present he sent t0 me...a simple but it brought a deepest meaning...and th0se 3 w0rds really make my w0rld g0 r0und...^^,

....i'm very grateful f0r this special wish and present he gave me...

.......1.........4.......3..........^^,